Exhausted, but Happy

This is the look of two very happy girls. After years of heartbreaking loss, we’re finally on the other side of it and this other side looks pretty damn good.

I was raised in an environment where the men made the decisions and managed the finances and determined the rules.

It was a very controlling environment that didn’t support confident courageous successful educated women. Girls were suppose to be pretty, quiet, and well behaved.  We were suppose to listen and respect the man’s place in the home yet we were not respected in return. This somehow led me to believe that I needed a man to take care of me; that somehow I was incompetent of taking care of myself.

It’s funny to hear myself say that because I’ve always been independent and I’ve certainly lived alone and have been self-sufficient, but there was always an inner dialogue that kept me from reaching my full potential. I was never empowered to do great things so I was comfortable doing good things.

Not feeling adequate creates an excessive need for control, but when life breaks you and you are forced to surrender and release control, you open up and blossom into the person you were always meant to be. You grow wings and fly and good is no longer good enough.

Nothing can touch you once you awaken and find your truth. Nothing can control you or make you feel weak once you know your true inner strength.

For two years I felt like I was being strangled under water and I couldn’t breathe and yet today, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. It’s hard parenting alone and trying to find time for all the things while working long hours and caring for a child who needs your presence more than ever.

I’m finding it harder and harder to get to the gym, my house is a mess and my refrigerator empty. My laundry piles up and my car is a reflection of a week’s worth of living. I use to be OCD and a perfectionist, but now I’m just too exhausted to care and that kinda feels good. I’m free. Finally free.

There’s something fueling my life that’s greater than words. I’m being held by love herself; by source; by the ancient wisdom of our ancestors.

The work we do in these magnificent bodies is powerful and deep and transformative. If you are grieving, grieve. If you are sad, be sad. If you are angry, be angry. If you want to laugh, laugh. Just be mindful and stop living in the past and allowing others to define you. Feel. Live. Breathe and Be your Beautiful Self.

I’m living proof that facing our loss and embracing the ever changing emotions and feelings from heartache will change you and make your life better if you meet it head on and embrace it with mindful attention and love. 

Love & Light, 
BeAnne
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Zoom Live Stream: Sunday May 16th, 10am-11:15am EDT. The session will open at 9:45am so please arrive early to get settled so you are ready to begin at 10am.

Recorded Option: Pre-pay (payment information below) and include "Recording" in the notes of either Venmo or Paypal and I'll send you the link after class on Sunday.
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Step #1 Register (Required):

https://us02web.zoom.us/meeting/register/tZwpf-6qqTkuHNcVZBojDarIrBXNFbZF3J4S

After registering, you will receive another email with link to join class (Save this for Sunday).

Step #2 Send Payment:

Sliding Fee ($5-$20)

Two Payment Platforms.

Venmo: BeAnne-Creeger
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