The snuggly cozy sweater I'm wearing was given to me by one of my nearest and dearest. The tea I'm drinking from another dear soul who told me that every cup of tea was a hug from her. The ring from someone I adore and admire. It is a symbol of deep intimate spiritual connection. The energy is something I carry with me every day and into every class I teach. It is a reminder to live in integrity, to be honest, to be present and to love with an open heart.
As most of you know, I'm a hugger and a lover and I value emotional connection. I've spent so much of my life yearning for intimacy and deep soulful affection and have often felt "lonely" in my relationships.
Life has taught me about authentic relationships and the extent people will go when they truly love you. It has taught me I have what it takes to navigate life's obstacles and that the answers I seek lie within. It has taught me that I am made of love and came from love and will return to love and nobody will ever take that away from me. It has taught me that I am strong and was born with grit and that my greatest accomplishment was learning how to surrender with grace and that true surrender is never to a person, but to higher deeper life force. Surrender is not failure, but an acknowledgement of truth.
This photo brings me such joy because I've never felt more at peace. I did not get here by accident. It took a long time and a lot of hard work.
I cried rivers of tears. I screamed from the depths of my being. I sat in a hole of darkness and despair and faced the dark night of the soul (and survived). I wept and morned the loss of ideals I held close to my heart. I grieved the loss of shattered hopes and dreams. And now here I sit (happy) in a state of grace completely at peace with the world. Alone, but not lonely. Seen ... supported ... free ... alive.
Healing means freedom and brings with it a happiness and a deep soulful connection to one's self. My story has unfolded in its own way and in its own time. It's my story and my journey and I'm proud of it. I have finally put down the heavy armor and found an unexplainable peace within.
To feel safe in my own skin and not need anyone's approval is a spiritual awakening. A rite of passage. A moment of truth. And I'm just taking it all in ... one sip, one breath at a time.
Whatever journey you're on or mountain you're climbing, don't give up. Keep going. It's worth it. I promise.
Love & Light