I'm going to be honest and just speak from the heart. The holidays are a bit different for me this year. It's one of the many unfortunate consequences of a divorce; being separated from your child. People tell me I will get use to it and that it will get easier, but I don't know that I will ever be comfortable being apart from my daughter. She is my heart and soul. She was born from my body. I am a part of her and she of me. There is no greater bond.
This will be the very first Christmas morning I wake up without her. I will not get to hear the little footsteps running down the stairs to see if Santa came or whether or not he took the letter and enjoyed the cookies and carrots we left for him and the reindeer. The void in my heart is indescribable, yet I know there are many parents out there who have lost their child to suicide, an illness, or some horrible tragedy and they do not get the luxury of seeing their child again. I do. What an incredible blessing. Although I know I'm blessed, I cannot discount or ignore the present ache in my heart so I hold {both} tendering. The grief of not having her here and the joy in knowing that she will be with me again soon. It's such a beautiful practice to hold this dichotomy so reverently. Our feelings are part of the human experience and we must honor them and feel them, but not get stuck in the muck of them. This life we are living is too precious to live amongst all this stress and anxiety. Things happen that are out of our control, but it's how we handle these moments and how we choose to live our lives afterwards that truly matters. Thankfully, we do get to control how we respond and where we put our attention. That said, I'm choosing to do something good. Something healing and from the heart. The mat is where I go to heal, to restore and to get the rest and energy I need to live my best life, so instead of being sad, I'm rolling out the mat on Christmas Eve and doing something I love. Yoga! Teaching is my greatest gift and brings me an immense amount of joy. If you're interested in practicing, but the time doesn't work with your schedule, I'm offering a recorded option so please see the details below. My heart and soul are always with you. Love & Light, BeAnne 🖤🖤🖤 Zoom Live Stream: Saturday December 24th, 9:30am-10:30am EDT. The session will open at 9:15am so please arrive early to get settled so you are ready to begin at 9:30am. Step #1 Send Payment: Cost: $15 Two Payment Platforms. Venmo: BeAnne-Creeger PayPal: [email protected] Recorded Option: Pre-pay (payment information above) and include "Recording" in the notes of either Venmo or Paypal and I'll send you the link after class on Saturday. Step #2 Register (Required): https://us02web.zoom.us/meeting/register/tZEsdOqtrTItE9Vun4aeXfsgneZfaHSBWKXX After registering, you will receive another email with link to join class (Save this for Saturday).
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