Cutting the chords May 11, 2008
Posted by admin in : Nature Tags:ceremony, mother earth, peace offering , add a commentI woke up feeling heavy in the heart…thinking about my ex-boyfriend and my life and what I was going to do in the next couple of weeks when my job ended. The stress was starting to get to me and I was feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders so I decided to go out in Nature and ask for a little guidance from mother earth by having a Native American ceremony.
Tobacco was typcially used as a peace offering in traditional Native American ceremonies so I bought my very first bag of loose tobacco. The guy behind the counter said, “Cool…you roll your own…” “WHAT? Roll my own??? No, no, NO… this is for a little ceremony I’m doing.” He didn’t know quite what to say, as I’m sure I’m the first person that ever walked in to his head shop asking for organic tobacco as a peace offering, but he just rang me up and acted like it wasn’t a big deal.
I trotted off to one of my favorite parks right along the Hooch. First, I ran the trail and then I asked the Universe for the perfect place to have my ceremony. I was immediately guided to this little opening off the beaten path. It looked a bit secluded and away from all the foot traffic, but once I got closer, I realized it was a little cubby that sat along the bank of the river. It was quaint, but it seemed a bit dark and enclosed so I turned to head back, but something stopped me. My gut said it was the right place and it felt safe and surrounded by a lot of love so I decided to stay. There were big tall trees lined with vines, an array of wildlife, the river, a nice little space for me to sit down, and one of the roots of the tree was actually in the shape of a heart so I knew I was destined to be there.
I wasn’t really sure the exact format of a traditional ceremony so I just went with my gut and invoked divine energy and the power of the four cardinal directions. I invoked the energy of all the elements and then I shared many thanks to mother earth…I apologized for anything I ever did consciously or otherwise to hurt myself or anyone else and then I forgave anyone who ever hurt me intentional or otherwise.
I spoke my prayers in to the tobacco and then buried it in the ground. I thanked the spirits and then asked them to help me cut the chord that was still connecting me to the energy of the relationship which ended back in December, as I was holding on to a lot of emotions of what happened between us. I needed to let go of it, as my heart ached to be free from all the anger and sadness I was feeling. I imagined my ex-boyfriend sitting in front of me and then I told him I loved him, as I asked for the chords to be cut so I could move on and find peace. Well no sooner did I ask, a huge branch from one of the trees came falling out of the sky right between the two energies I was focusing on. It scared the living crap out of me, but I instantly knew it was my undeniable sign that my prayer had been answered. It was as if mother earth literally came right out of the sky and cut the chords.
Of course there are cynics who would say it was just a branch and totally unrelated, but the energy of the moment said differently. The wind blew and the leaves rustled throughout the trees and then a beam of light came shining through this little opening filling the entire cubby with sunshine and there I was…free…free as a bird. I stood up, smiled, said thank you, and then left my little spot to bask in the afternoon sun.