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Just for a Week November 28, 2008

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I met a really special guy a couple weeks ago in my yoga class. He just so happened to walk in to the studio just as I approached the front door. We exchanged energy the moment our eyes met and then we practiced right next to one other so I was having a hard time keeping my eyes to myself. I know we’re not technically suppose to be looking at anyone, but I just couldn’t help it. He was extremely attractive and he had a beautiful body. His spirit felt so sweet and free and his energy seemed grounded but playful and his heart so open and genuine.

I thought it was quite ironic how I recently wrote a post about being free and finally being able to let go of my last relationship and then out of the blue I meet this guy, but that’s usually how life works. One door closes and another opens. Long story short, we end up spending the whole week together and had an amazing time. It felt really good to feel something for a guy, as it had been a long time coming. I actually started to believe I might not ever feel for anyone ever again, but then I saw this guy walk in to the studio and everything changed. 

It was so refreshing to be in the energy of someone so spiritually connected and I don’t mean in the way of religion or ”God,” but in the way of being connected to life and living. He was definitely aware of something greater, as he was living life consciously and with divine awareness. He was one of the few who truly understood life and was one of the most real people I had ever met. I just felt so comfortable around him…like we had been friends for years.

We covered a lot of ground in the week we spent and I felt amazingly close to him just after 5 days. Being with him was intoxicating and absolutely surreal. We spent a lot of time talking about life, playing downtown and hiking in the North Georgia mountains. I was intrigued and fascinated by everything he had to say and I wanted to know more, but the week was all we had, as he was from the West Coast and here on business getting ready to fly to the other side of the world to manage a job for the next year and a half. I was really bummed the day he flew out, but I had to let it go, as everything happens for a reason and I firmly believe there are no such thing as coincidences. People come in to our lives for a reason and we may never know the “why,” but we have to trust in our higher selves even if we can’t intellectually wrap  our minds around it.   

I kept trying to figure out why this guy walked in to my life. I didn’t understand and thought maybe the Universe was playing a little cosmic joke on me. I would have moved across the world to be with this guy, as crazy as that sounds and I couldn’t explain it if I tried. It was just one of those things, but when it was all said and done I realized it wasn’t about me giving up my life for another man, as I had done so many times before. It was about me waking up so I could let go of the past and make room for the new. He came in to my life and and lit the fire that died with my last relationship…he reminded me of what was truly important and the kind of man I wanted in my life.

We have to trust in the moment and enjoy the ride, as it’s not about the destination. We waste too much time and energy trying to understand life and the things that happen to us that are beyond our comprehension, as we over think everything. There’s a lot of freedom in letting go and enjoying the moment. There wasn’t a lot I could do, but be thankful this man walked in to my life and shared his heart. Albeit brief, our time together was so very sweet and I’ll always remember the beautiful time we shared. It’s not always about understanding why something is happening. Sometimes its just about sitting with it…being with it…appreciating it and then releasing it to something much greater.

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Sharing the Wealth November 24, 2008

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I typically do not get in to conversations involving politics, but while I was having dinner with the Republican the other night, we talked about the election and what each of us thought about it. He told me the reason he voted for McCain was because he worked really hard and he didn’t think he should have to share his hard-earned money.

I thought about what he said quite a bit because some of us work really hard to achieve a certain level of success and we want to be compensated for it without having to share, but I think part of being blessed with such abundance is giving back to the community. The more we give, the more we receive and that doesn’t mean we should give to get, but it’s important to know people who tithe regularly are usually blessed with prosperity and abundance. Look at Oprah and Bill Gates. Their generosity is absolutely astounding and I think one of the reasons they are so successful is because they have given away so much of their time and money to charities and other organizations. 

Our world is in a constant state of flux…whether we are conscious of it or not, we are always trying to seek balance, as everything and every being has a perfect place in the universal web of life. Looking back to the beginning of time, people always held different positions of authority…there weren’t just chiefs running around minding the tribe…there had to be Indians too. Everyone had a role to play or a job to fill, as the individual parts made up the collective whole. Some people were blessed in life with the right upbringing, the right education, the perfect mentor or just good fortune. It is with these blessings people were able to achieve such greatness in their lives so we should want to give back some of that goodness in hopes it will help others achieve the same.

Think about it. Where would we be without the administrative assistants who run the offices of some of the greatest CEO’s or the brick layers who lay the foundation of our infrastructures or the teachers and police officers who provide services for such low wages? They represent the middle class who Republicans don’t want to share with because they think everyone should earn their own. Well I believe they are earning their own and they make it possible for people to take over large corporations and earn the revenues that enable them to grow and give back, which then feeds the global economy.

Why wouldn’t people want to share with the very teachers who made it possible for them to gain the education they needed in order to climb the corporate ladder? People who earn a lot of money shouldn’t necessarily have to spend all of it helping those who don’t even help themselves, but I think we need to be okay with giving back to those who are willing to work hard, but aren’t fortunate enough to receive the same salary as someone in a senior level management or executive position. 

We all have a place here and we’re all doing the best we know how based on our upbringing and the influences we had in our lives. Nobody should look down upon anyone, as there should be more compassion and understanding and less judgment and hate.

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A not-so-well Yogi November 16, 2008

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The only thing worse than being sick is being sick without someone to take care of you. This week was miserable. I woke up at 5am on Tuesday morning with a migraine and sinus infection. It seems as if once a person has a sinus infection, she is prone to sinus issues the rest of her life. Of course I couldn’t go to the doctor because I didn’t have health insurance so I had to suffer through.

The pressure in my sinus cavities was debilitating. I couldn’t see straight and my head throbbed as if the infection had a life of its own. My eyes hurt…my teeth hurt…my face hurt. The migraines were so bad I wanted to vomit. All I wanted to do was lay still until the infection ran its course, but I didn’t have the luxury of being able to stay at home and get paid like I once did as a corporate employee so I had to find the strength to pull myself out of bed and teach my classes. Its truly amazing what our bodies are capable of because I don’t even know how I managed to get there, let alone, teach. Before each class I would sit in the parking lot and pray for the strength to survive and by the will of God I was able to find the energy to get through each class. 

The drive home was unbearable, but Wednesday was the worst, as I was stuck in traffic and it was raining and my head was ready to explode. I felt like I was in a pressure cooker and at full capacity. I had reached the threshold and was at my absolute limit. I came close to pulling over, but I desperately wanted to be home and in my own bed so I pressed my fingers in to the pressure points surrounding the sinus cavities to relieve as much pressure as I could, but the pain was pulsating through every cell in my body. I started to cry, which only made it worse, but I didn’t know what else to do. I felt like I was dying a slow painful death.

I wanted to die. It had to be better than living in such agony, but instead I found myself in an argument with my alter-ego. I just sat there and observed the ridiculous conversation going back in fourth in my head. One voice was saying, “Get over it…what are you crying about…crying isn’t going to make it any better…get a hold of yourself…you’re a wreck.” The other voice was sobbing and screaming out in pain. “Dear God…please help me…make this go away…I can’t take it…its unbearable…I’m begging…please.” There I sat as these two voices bickered back and fourth like two little kids. I was irritated and wanted them to both shut up, but it distracted me until I pulled in to my driveway so the insanity actually got me home.

I went on-line to look up homeopathic remedies for sinus infections and I found some crazy sites. One of the pages I pulled up had 600mg of ibuprofen as the first cure in a litany of remedies. IPUPROFEN??? Homeopathic??? Are you kidding me??? Another site I pulled up said to squeeze fresh garlic and then drop the juice in my nose with a ear dropper. Right! Fresh garlic juice in my nose…that sounds pleasant. Oh, and another site said to sniff ginger powder up my nose. Yes, even better. There was even a disclaimer that said, “These suggestions are extremely unpleasant, but effective.” I was already unpleasant. I didn’t need to know another level of unpleasant. I would much rather suffer through the pain than sniff garlic or ginger up my nose…yikes!

I just happened to have a chiropractic appointment for my neck the following day and my doctor knew just enough Chinese Medicine to relieve some of the pressure and then he gave me a bottle of this homeopathic sinus nose spray by Guna. He said it was the most effective stuff he’s ever used so I was willing to give it a try even though I didn’t think anything homeopathic was going to win the battle of this one, but it proved to be just short of a miracle. I have never seen something work so quickly and effectively in my entire life. Now getting the thing to work was a whole other story.

My doctor just sprayed it in the air and said, “See…just like that…a couple sprays in each nostril and you’ll be cleared up in no time.” Well when I tried to spray it in my nose it wouldn’t work. It just leaked out the top and then ran down my nose. It was an absolute mess. I tried spraying it without the nozzle being in my nostril to see if I could get it to work and not only did I get it to work, I shot myself in the eye. Yes, that felt great. I was already close to having a melt down and then there I was screaming out in agony as my eye burned through the pain of whatever was in the bottle I just sprayed. 

It was not a good afternoon, but I slowly started to feel better each and every day and now it’s Sunday and I’m just about 100%. I’m still a bit congested and feel a little run down, but I’m hoping another good night’s sleep will be just the antidote. It’s no fun having to take care of yourself and make yourself chicken soup, but thankfully Wolfgang Puck makes an organic old fashioned chicken noodle soup AND Back to Nature makes organic saltines. God bless both of them!!! They were my saving grace.

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Indecent Proposal November 11, 2008

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Like many other Americans, I was herded through a gymnasium for almost 4 hours, as I stood in line with hundreds of other people to vote Halloween night. I tried reading, but after scanning the same page 7 times I realized I wasn’t going to overcome the racket of voices outnumbering the words on the page. I tried listening to my IPod, but heard more conversation than music so as the great adage goes, if you can’t beat ‘em, join ‘em. The 4 hours didn’t turn out to be so bad after all. I actually met some really nice people and I was grateful for this one gentleman, in particular, who kept me entertained.

I appreciated the intellectual conversation because there were a lot of other conversations going on that seemed superficial or completely ignorant and juvenile. You just never know who you’re going to meet or what you’re going to learn at the polling station. By the end of the evening we had pretty much covered everything from travel to parenting to what we did for a living. We exchanged cards right before we parted, but I honestly didn’t think I would ever see or hear from him again. Well the next afternoon he sent me a text message. We exchanged several messages throughout the day and then unexpectedly, he asked me if I wanted to join him for lunch one day during the week.

A man usually doesn’t ask a girl out unless he is interested, but he had a girlfriend so I was a little confused, as I wouldn’t be okay with my boyfriend meeting some girl in line and then asking her out to lunch. I certainly didn’t want to have a meal with someone who was already dating someone so I told him I didn’t think it would be appropriate. His response was that he had an open relationship, whatever that meant, and he didn’t think of having lunch with me as anything other than two people getting together to know each other a little better. He wanted to see if there was enough energy between us to cultivate a friendship, as he thought maybe we could be friends and go riding together since we talked a lot about mountain biking.

I thought “friends” were typically introduced by other friends or through work or social engagements, but perhaps a part of getting older was being comfortable with meeting someone and being able to have lunch with them without it being sexual. What if there was a reason we were suppose to meet and I closed myself off to a good business contact or riding buddy. Who knew? The possibilities were endless and there was definitely good energy between us so I was willing to explore it. Besides, I wasn’t attracted to him. He was eight years older than me, a Republican, an executive, father of two, and dating a beautiful socialite. Nothing about him had ”me” written anywhere on it.

We ended up meeting for dinner and I enjoyed his company. I felt good about my decision to meet him, as he put me at ease talking about his girlfriend, his kids and his job. I felt silly for thinking he was interested in more than just a friendship and thought I had learned something new in life until he walked me to the car, grabbed me with both hands and kissed me rather abruptly. Now what was that all about and why did he do that? I did not appreciate it one bit, but it certainly confirmed what I expected from the very beginning. I just wish there didn’t always have to be an underlying motive. Why can’t people just lay their cards on the table and be honest? Is it really that difficult? 

I’m learning more and more to trust in my own instincts and not always give people the benefit of the doubt. I want to believe everyone is good and has the best intentions, but that’s just not the way it is in the real world. Just because my heart is wide open doesn’t mean the same for everyone else. I’m starting to wonder if life would be easier if I were more insensitive or insincere in my thoughts and actions. Perhaps I need to be a little more guarded and protected or maybe I just need to use a little more discretion and be such an open book when I meet people …maybe this way I wouldn’t be so disappointed when people let me down or showed a different side to themselves.

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Go Obama!!! November 7, 2008

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I have to say I was proud to be an American after seeing the record numbers of voters hit the polls this year.  Young voters and other people who never cared to participate in the past came out and endured long grueling lines to cast their vote. I know there are cynics who would say some of these people came out and voted for the wrong reasons, but who is to judge one person’s reason over another.

I’m sure there were people who voted for Obama just because he was black and for McCain because he was white, but whatever the motive, they still came out and acknowledged their right to vote as an American Citizen, which is history in the making.

What impresses me the most is how many people came out to vote because they wanted to see a change. Whether that change meant the first African American President to be elected in to office or to see a change in the way the country was being run, people recognized something wasn’t working and wanted to do something about it. I consider this to be monumental considering how many people typically resist change and would rather be content than step out of their comfort zone.

I also think its good the new voters got what they hoped for because it meant their voices were heard. The younger generations have been screaming out for years trying to get people to listen to them and some even ended up rebelling because nobody paid them any mind. We need to start responding to what these generations have to say because it’s time we acknowledge the new energy they have to bring to the table. We need a paradigm shift in thinking if we plan on saving the planet, as it has been neglected and abused for too many years.

I remember coming home after my first trip abroad being ashamed of my country because too many Americans were living without regard for anyone else. Lives were full of greed without a lot of respect for others or gratitude for what we had just by being born an American in a free country. I attribute most of it to ignorance and lack of awareness because until you know, you don’t know, but the more people’s eyes open, the more they are responsible. The democratic voice was heard, which means our votes made a difference. It is now up to us to step up to the plate, as one man alone can’t fix the world.

The president can lead us, but he can’t free us from our ignorance. We elected a new vision, but now we must stand up and do our part, which means making peace and forgiving our enemies, respecting our fellow man, not throwing away money for the sake of spending, disposing of trash properly, relinquishing the need to control so much, not judging others, being compassionate, giving without expecting anything in return, and taking care of ourselves physically, emotionally, and mentally.

We can’t sit back and blame the government for everything wrong in this world, as we are just as much to blame. Yes, the government lent money to those who couldn’t afford to pay the loans back, but don’t you think some of those people knew they couldn’t afford them and signed the papers anyway? We can also blame the government for high health care cost, but don’t you think one of the biggest reasons the premiums are so high is because people don’t take care of themselves?

It’s not just the government. It’s you…it’s me…it’s your neighbor…its Joe the Plumber. Until we take responsibility for our own lives, we can’t point fingers or blame the leader of our country. It’s just not fair to give all that to one person. I wouldn’t want Obama’s job for anything in the world because no matter who was to blame for the state of our economy, he has a long road ahead of him. We can help shorten the road by participating and doing what we can in our own lives. It’s all for one and one for all…it’s about time we came together as a team…in the famous words of the Pledge of Allegiance…”One Nation Under God.”

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